Take care of of you, get you off. I don’t want to use the word ‘narcistic’  but there’s something really really to me when a man is making love to himself. He’s adoring his own cock and that’s somebody’s else’s business.  It freaks me out, to be perfectly honest. If your dick is that hard and that big, give it to someone else.

- Jack X

Yet I still wanted the big boys, the ones who were clearly hung. I know, I’ve said that size is not an issue with me - not when the dude is built and studly and boasts a fantastic ass. I still feel that way. But there’s something really nice about being with a man who’s soft. It’s like the aftermath to sex, even if sex didn’t happen. It’s cooler to just hug and feel him, to grab that big meat and wonder whether it’s ready to blast or just lying dormant, having shot it’s load. I suppose it’s a romantic thing. I suppose I’m still a romantic.

- Jack X

PS These guys ain’t soft….

Gay men love sex, sure. But we want true love too, as dumb as it sounds. I’ve been with dudes cruising in their cars. I’ve seen one guy jump out at a red light to beat off in front of me. The best was the fuck I had at St. Mark’s Bathhouse. Total stud, beautiful, built, probably long since passed away. God knows, he took more cum in his ass than anyone, and this was the pre-AIDS days. Yet I so wanted to buy him a dozen roses and kiss him too. Love or sex? Is there really a conflict? Let’s go for all of it, men.

- Jack X

They normally wave it around, slap your face with with it. But it isn’t hard. It’s just too damn big. When you’re hung like a mule, you have to pump a lot to make that fucker hard. Even John Holmes couldn’t do it often. Some Porn stars could, like Michael Christopher and the fabulous Jack Wrangler. I’m happier with a smaller cock that’s stiff as all hell.

- Jack X

The classic dad has a hairy chest, hairy nuts and an attitude. That last is the most impotant - he takes control. He’ll give you order and make you get him off. I also love dad ass. I tend to think it’s been neglected for years and that pucker hole has been ignored. I love smelling and tasting dad ass, even as I turn into a dad myself. His cock doesn’t have to be huge. His manliness in his that ass and that chest.

- Jack X

It frees us. It releases us from the responsibility of being gay. We’re taken, there’s no choice, and the stud in charge takes full charge, which is no small thing. They barrel through, calling you every name in the book. You’re guilty of nothing - hence, the fantasy of rape. Is it PC? No. But it triggers a vital element in every gay man. Do I want to be beaten up? Nope. But I do want to be conquered and I think most gay man want the same.

- Jack X

Now, that’s not to say that it isn’t nearly as hot to see a stud with a dick in his mouth. All kinds of sexual primers come into play whenever we watch gay sex, and most of it has to do with exactly who is doing the sucking and eating the ass. The most important thing is, he’s got to be the man of our dreams. If he’s that studly, he can chow down on cum and not lose one iota of his maleness. Yet…I still am always drawn to the rimmer. I like the control he shows and I like how he’s pursuing a tunnel.

- Jack X

But I’m good with flaws. There’s a very sexy quality to men who are OK but not perfect. No, I don’t want a big bellied bear. But a little extra meat on a man is fine. It reveals a humanity, the eroticism of imperfection. Muscles get me going, big time. I love to worship them. Still, I like the guy better who’s at home in his bod, who’s not out to draw crowds. Sexiness is always between the ears, anyway, and few of us are super-buffed. A little excess weight is fine if the dude carries it with confidence and knows how to use his tool. He’s more real, and we’re not after Ken dolls, are we?

- Jack X

I like guys who like their pits paid attention to. For one thing, it raises their guns - they flex in the process and that doesn’t hurt. More than that, though, is how I love that deep musky smell. It’s the essence of a man, as much as his balls. I know it’s bacteria and such. I don’t care. I love to inhale that sweat. And what really astounds me is how so many guys get off on having their pits loved. Again, it seems to get to them as much as a hot blow job. Which makes them all the more manly to me, and which sends me over the edge every time.

- Jack X

But I couldn’t get past that sexual fire of men on the street. I still can’t. Truckers, hitchhikers - hot as all hell. You may not even be feeling frisky but then you see that stud on the sidewalk, thumb out, shirt off, packages bulging in dirty jeans. It’s dirty and nasty and a huge turn-on. It’s too bad that times have changed and a lot of these guys are truly hustling and looking for drugs. In better days, they were just after a few bucks and a blow job.

So now I’m getting nostalgic. I’ll bet they’re still out there, those dudes, cruising Dixie, sweaty and muscled and hung. Well, maybe some day. Only, next time, I’m keeping the keys safe.

- Jack X